Days

The days are just passing by.  Some fast, some slower.  Jeff is doing better and worse.  Hospice is doing an excellent job of managing his pain.  But we are seeing him decline.  He is weaker and sleeping more.  But still up and about a little every day.  He shipped cattle on Monday and rode his horse.  But I can't see many more days of that in the future.  He also got banged and bruised by a steer in our pens.  Yikes!  But I've noticed he is slightly proud when he tells the story.  It's just a simple reminder of the tough guy he used to be.

His quick zaps of radiation were Monday and Tuesday.  I hope they do the trick and stop some of the nose bleeds.  His nose is still bleeding but is much better.  Our friends, Kevin and Cara met us in the waiting room on Monday and sat with us.  And my cousin, Sus was there both days.  It was so comforting to be surrounded and not alone.  Thanks sweet friends!!

So we are just here.  Trying to keep it together, be true to it all and stay Jeff and Leta.  It's hard.  There is a distinct transition from partner and spouse to care giver.  It's nothing we want to do but we're thankful we have the strength to do it anyway.

Leta