We're in the rough days. Chemo is bad and recovery is almost worse. These are the pep talk days. I keep telling Jeff by the end of the week he will be strong enough for Luke to drive him around to check cattle. It's hard to be patient. Jeff has lost 10 lbs but still has another 20 or so to go. His rash is gone but all the edema has caused his skin to itch and peel.
This morning I was feeling a little insecure about all of this so I Googled Interleukin 2. I know that can be dangerous. Sometimes it's more information than you want. Words like "grim" can sting! But I had just had a big cup of coffee and was feeling brave. It was good news/okay news. The good news is that most ALL people on Interleukin 2 respond exactly like Jeff. The list of common side effects described Jeff. One sentence was hard to read. "There is no relationship between the presence or severity of side effects and the effectiveness of the medication." Sting! In our minds this treatment HAS to be working. But then I kept reading and felt a little better to know, "It is the only drug available that even has a possibility of a profoundly positive and lengthy effect." Its Jeff's only chance of treatment. He's got to to it.
So how do we make sense of all this information and up and down feelings? We tried to make it as simple as possible. Today we will try to give and receive as much goodness as we can. There it is. The secret of life according to Jeff and Leta. It's not entirely profound but it works for us today.
Love,
Jeff and Leta
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