Jeff had a good report at the doctor yesterday. Again he was amazed at how well Jeff looked. He was pretty confident that Jeff would start chemo again on Monday. And blood test results today confirmed that. His blood work was great and he's not neutropenic. Which means he has enough white blood cells to fight any infections. That's good news.
This morning we started to process that information. We have been very distracted by the previous chemo, rash, reactions and rebounding. Today it started to sink in that Jeff is about to do all of that again. Oh right, he's got cancer. Funny how we weren't worried about that for a moment - too worried about other things. So for the next week we are going to try and stay happy and focused. The dr told Jeff to try and gain as much weight as possibly. Really? Seriously? Yes, I heard the words. Wouldn't that be a treat? "Please eat as much of anything that you want!" We are going to try and remain calm and face Round 2 with dignity and determination. The kids will be in school this time and I don't know if that will be harder or easier. Probably a little of both.
One sobering moment that is kind of a blessing too. Jake, our 9 year old said to me last week, "Momma, do you know what the scariest thing in the world is? It would be if you and Daddy both had cancer." Why do 9 year olds have to be so observant and smart? I told him," Yes, that is one of the scariest things I can think of. But, today I don't have cancer. Daddy does but he's okay right now. No matter what happens in the future you will always be surrounded by people that will love you and take care of you. We can't worry about tomorrow we just have to count our blessings today." Of course we had to hold each other for a while but then we both felt better. It is the scariest thing for all of us. But no matter what, it will all be okay. That's not just my promise, it's our faith and the promise we've based our whole life on.
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