Eat!

We just got back from the dr's visit and it went pretty well. He was mildly concerned with Jeff's weight. He was down to 174. He weighed 206 last week. That's just very hard on your body. And today's loss was probably a reflection of fluid loss. He doesn't want Jeff to lose anymore bady mass. So he put Jeff on a medicine to stimulate his appetite. I had no idea that kind of thing even existed. I will be careful not to let something like that get into the wrong hands! Wouldn't want someone like me to even get a drop of that stuff! I'll be sure and wear gloves when I handle that substance!

Dr Patel said to plan on scans for the next week or two. Were so happy to do the scans here and not have to return to MD Anderson. Dr Patel has been so kind in every way possible to communicate with our dr's down there. I can't imagine what our lives would be if we had to do chemo in Houston. Thankful!!!

Yesterday I had a couple of people comment to me about how brave Jeff and I are. Just wanted to comment on that. We don't feel all that brave. In fact we are pretty scared and full of anxiety most of the time. There are daily tears and constant doubts. We do try our best to fill ourselves with hope and faith. But honestly it is impossible at times. We have tried to give up control over the situation and just let it be. We pray for a cure and we pray for peace. Whenever you love us, pray for us, and lift us up we are soothed. We do have those moments of calmness. We will never look at anything in the same way. We have been changed but hopefully not scarred. We are mad,sad and frightened but hopefully not bitter. My hope for this blog is to show you in all honesty how we are living with Jeff's cancer. We are not even close to perfect but out truth is sincere. Even though we stumble daily, our faith is absolute. It will all be okay.

A little shaky,
Jeff and Leta