"For what it's worth, it was worth all the while"

I love the lyrics to that song by Green Day, Good Riddance. Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go So make the best of this test and don't ask why It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right I hope you had the time of your life. Jeff slipped away peacefully yesterday. Yesterday morning when it was obvious what was happening, it was very clear that the moment at hand was meant for me and Jeff. I climbed into bed with him and wrapped us up tight in a quilt. And I just held him and loved him. It wasn't scary or weird. It was actually just love. It was part of the promise we made to each other - till death do us part. So I got to be a part of that beautiful moment. As I was lying there thinking of our life together it made me think how very few times when we are on earth that we get a glimpse of heaven. Jeff and I always thought new babies were close to that since their little spirits are fresh out of heaven. Their first breaths and cries are celestial. And so were Jeff's last. So from what I can tell, it's all going to be okay for the rest of us. I am planning Jeff's service for Thursday afternoon. We talked about this a lot. He didn't want a dark funeral. He wanted a service to praise God and celebrate his life. And afterwards he wanted a big party. He wanted people to eat and drink and laugh. And of course tell all the "Jeff stories" they could remember. Unless they are stories about Jeff and me in college. Those might not be appropriate for my kids to hear! He said it until the end. Everything important in life he was blessed with. Love, Leta