Scans tomorrow

I know I previously posted that Jeff's scan were the 17th but that was incorrect.  His scans are tomorrow.  You all know that my mind is gone!  How could it be really?  Sorry about the error.  Jeff scans tomorrow morning at 9:30 and we should have results by Friday or Monday. 

As you would imagine, we are very anxious about this.  But we've talked and talked and talked.  We know that whatever is there is already there - or not there.  We have no control.  So we are trying to calm ourselves with busyness.  Trying. You know there is a lot to be said for calming your fears with medication or alcohol.  I've tried both.  But they seem to be only a temporary fix.  What you don't feel today you WILL feel later on.  So as much as I want to take a pill and not feel any of this I do know that eventually I will have to deal with this.  And I think it's ok to feel it. I've got to feel this. It's not pleasant but it's our life.  I think being in the moment now will allow us to have a freedom in our future.  So we are facing our fears the best we can.  And feeling all of the rushing emotions.  Fear, anxiety but also hope and desire for goodness for our future. So many of you have called Jeff and checked on him.  It means the world to him.  Please continue!!!

We have had some goodness in our last week.  My friend, Loralei got an excellent prognosis.  Looks like she's going to be fine! Praise God! Jeff is feeling good and has been eating like a champ and working a little everyday.  He is not sleeping much but that is normal for him.  The kids have had a stomach bug but so far Jeff and I have not gotten it.  Thank you God!!!  My friends expecting a baby had a sonogram and saw a little gummy bear with a heartbeat.  What a blessing!  I went to get lamb feed and got to see my friend, Jalane.  God put her right on my path when I needed her.  She lifted me right up with all her goodness and kindness!  Luke won the lamb show at Happy and we have our county show this weekend.  I'll be cheering for all the Happy kids.  They are the cream of the crop!  My Dad will not be having surgery after all.  He will be starting cardiac rehab.  I'm sure there will be a lot of healthy eating and exercise in his future.  We are blessed that he has been given a second chance. Truly blessed!

We will keep you posted this week.  Please keep us in your prayers.  We are praying and saying that the chemo has worked and Jeff's cancer is gone.

Love,
Jeff and Leta