Today was bittersweet. Happy and sad. We closed on our new house. It was a much tougher day than I could have anticipated. You see, this city girl/turned country girl will be moving closer to town, and closer to my family because my husband loves me so much. I've said it before that the letting go is the hardest part. Not living at the farm will not be an easy step for Jeff and our family. It is our home. Literally the only home my kids have ever known. It's the place where Jeff grew up and where his farm and cattle are located. We will be leaving and he did it for me and the kids. He loves us that much. But it was a tough day. We've always talked and dreamed and planned about our "forever house". We wanted to raise the kids out here and then build or find a house someday. Those plans were fast forwarded when we found out the chemo didn't work back in January. Jeff knew the right thing would not be for his family to live way out in the country, on a dirt road, far from family. Luke will be graduating from high school next year and I would be alone with Gracie and Jake. Jeff couldn't imagine it. So things all fell into place, we found a house we loved and we bought it. It is still out in the country but much closer to town. So we did it. Most people probably celebrate but I've cried and cried and Jeff is already asleep on the couch - exhausted by the whole process. You have to sign 5999832 documents these days in order to buy a house. Yikes! Jeff's nose bled the entire time and he felt terrible. But he did it. He did it for me. For those of you that know Jeff, he can be so hard. He works all the time and can be relentless in his business and pursuit of doing his best. But he also has a soft side. He loves his family more than his business and he is making all his decisions for us. So that we will be okay and taken care of. And it is so hard for him. The letting go. And I love him again and again for being that great man that puts his family first. Today was a big step in that process. The future holds many more of those steps. I don't know how we're going to do it but I guess it will all happen. I just want everyone to know what a wonderful man Jeff is. He's not perfect. But he's one of the best I know. Sacrifice is never easy but we all do it. It's a beautiful expression of love to one another.
Jeff had his blood test today and we should get results tomorrow. He's ready for his counts to rise so he can get back on the trial medicine. He is still relentless in his fight against cancer. I couldn't imagine him dealing with it any other way.
Moving forward,
Jeff and Leta
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