Summer

School is out and that means a new season for the Smith's. It is officially summer to us.  Two months ago we didn't know if Jeff would see this day but he is still pushing on and living life everyday.  In fact, he is outside right now riding pens with Luke.  Yes, he is still on a horse.  He amazes me everyday.  But being outside, right in the middle of everything is where he wants to be. Everyday we are reassured that we have chosen the best medicine for Jeff: a dose of work and sunshine, being with his family and counting his blessings. It seems to be working.  Jeff is somewhat weaker but not tremendously so.  He works in the morning and comes in to rest in the afternoon.  Usually he drives around later in the day to check things.  His pain is being managed and he still has things to smile and laugh about.  He got together for a mini high school reunion and was touched to the core by old friends and all the memories and stories that went with them. 
As hard as this is, he is thankful everyday.  He is continuing to stay calm and feel peace.  Although the fight for life is still in him!
We are now agreeing that he will be strong enough to move to our new house in a couple of weeks.  We have put off making that decision based on how he was feeling.  He has even caught some of our enthusiasm and is looking forward to our new place.  Please pray that we can get through that transition smoothly.  Please pray that it will quickly feel like "our home". I'm especially praying that our kids will have time to make some memories with their Daddy there.
We continue to feel the love and support from so many people in our lives.  We have surrounded ourselves with a mighty force.  However, there are a few people that continue to cause Jeff  much stress and anxiety.  These are people that Jeff cannot let go of.  Please pray for Jeff and those relationships.  It's his toughest thing right now.  He is such a good man and continues to always try to do the right thing by them.  I often fear they are taking away all his energy but I feel like my hands are tied.  I am helpless in my love and protection for him.
But I know this is something Jeff feels he must do and a weight he must carry.  I however, could snap at any moment and tell everyone EXACTLY how I feel.  I'm just trying to keep my mouth shut.  But really, what are the odds of that?
Our journey is continuing on.  We don't know what exactly is next on our path.  So glad to know that you are all walking with us!