Tough!

Wow! Today was a tough day.  When we got home Thursday and we were so relieved to be home it felt great.  We hugged our kids and slept in our own bed. It was wonderful!!  But today reality has set in.  Jeff and I didn't sleep at ALL last night.  What if we'd done this?  Why? What if we'd done that?  Our thoughts ran wild and anxiety ruled - through sleeping pills!  But we got up this morning and pep talked each other.  We are still here.  We are tired.  We are okay today.  We can do this.  We still don't want to!  Today we are snow balled into a heap!  But we've been thru days like this before.  This feeling doesn't last forever.  Thank goodness your brain will eventually take over and this will be the norm. But for today we are scared to death...  We seriously talked about taking a 6 month vacation far away.  Seriously.  But our kids are watching us.  The most important thing in the world to us.  We have to show them.  How to handle adversity with as much grace and dignity as we can manage.  So we will not run away.  We will stand and defend. The toughest battle of our lives.  But there are SO many great people on our team! We are going to need you. Please get ready!

Delights for the day:  Jeff getting up at 6 to feed and ride pens wth Luke.  I also got up and fixed breakfast and did 8 loads of laundry and went to the store!  The sounds of the kids outsde squeeling and laughing in the pool.  Fresh sweet corn and squash casarole for supper!  Friends and family that love us no matter what! Special thanks to Dean that drove Jeff around all afternoon to "check stuff" and Kent that sat on our porch forever and filled Jeff with the hope and promise of the Holy Spirit!

Peace,
Leta and Jeff