Some A+ Days

We had some really good moments last weekend and I was thankful. And it's been hard to be thankful lately. I am but I don't want to have to express it right now. Everyone is writing on Facebook all the things they are thankful for and it just makes me mad. I'm going to let myself be mad this year. But not so long that I get bitter. Just a little cranky. So we had two A+ moments last weekend. It was Luke's last home game of the season and it was senior night. All the parents go on the field and stand by their child as they are introduced. I really dreaded it, so much that I was afraid I would lose my shit right there on the field in front of my son and everybody. But it went okay. I just looked at him and thought about how proud I was and how much I loved him. I knew Jeff had to be enjoying the moment with us. It was very sad but I kept it together like a good normal mother should. Luckily I had my friends and sisters close by if I needed them. Thank you: Katie, Sally, Daddy, Kim and Jimmy, Tygh and Chad, Matt and Missy and Jennifer. Instead we huddled together and watched a great game and cheered like maniacs when Luke scored a touchdown. We won the game and my son had a very happy night! A+ Then on Saturday we had a lamb jackpot show. Luke was working so our friend Marleigh went with us to help. We ended up with a Reserve Grand Champion lamb and Gracie won showmanship. A+ So we do have some good things going on in our lives. The holidays are close and I'd just as soon cancel and run of to a beach somewhere. But I'm guessing the reality is turkey with all my family and a lot of chaos. It's what we know! I baked 5 potatoes Sunday night instead of 4. I cried my eyes out. It is so hard everyday. I miss him so much. I ache for him to hold me. So do the kids. We are struggling to get through these days. If you get a postcard from Cancun - it was me and you'll know why. Leta