Destruction

I feel like I should be posting more but there is not too much to report right now.  We are home and Jeff is doing a lot of "nothing" which is driving him crazy and ultimately driving me crazy.  This is not our normal dynamic and we can't get into a groove.  Jeff's blood counts are still very low. Which means he feels crappy and can't be around people because of the risk of infection. So no Christmas parties for us! Usually by this time he has started to rally.  His blood test on Thursday showed his platelets and white counts are continuing to drop.  The chemo is doing it's job and is destroying everything in it's path.  Gotta love it, gotta hate it.  We go back on Monday for another blood test to see if Jeff has hit bottom and is on his way back to normal.  His last round of chemo is due to start December 12th.  His platelets need to be well over 100 and he is hovering at 17.  I'm not sure what will happen.  But Jeff and I love to play the scenerio game.  In fact it is probably the number reason we are driving each crazy!  If one more person tells me that everything happens for a reason............  Well it is the Christmas season so I'm sure I'll have to restrain myself.  We would love to finish Jeff's last round of chemo before Christmas.  But I suppose there is a possibility of starting it after Christmas.  You know how I love to have a plan and stick to it.  Cancer and chemo must not have gotten the memo.
Our house is decorated for Christmas and we are attempting to put on a happy face.  When I think about it we are really happy to have made it this far.  We are so close to finishing this treatment.  Please forgive our fussiness and irritability.  We really are thankful.  Really. 

Jeff and Leta